TALK WITH DEATH - Beta Cohort

Sick of Everyone Turning Your Cancer Into Their Therapy Session?

Watch this if you're done performing strength while screaming inside, and ready to find out what Death has been waiting to tell you.

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The Problem You're Actually Facing

You got diagnosed with something serious.

And the moment you told people, everything changed.

Not just medically. Socially.

Because suddenly, you stopped being YOU. You became an archetype.

The Seven Roles Society Forces On You

The Brave Warrior - You must fight. Never give up. Stay strong. Show everyone how resilient you are. Post updates about your "battle." Inspire others with your courage.

The Miracle - You're supposed to defy the odds. Beat the statistics. Become the survivor story that gives everyone else hope. Prove that positive thinking conquers all.

The Teacher - You've learned "profound lessons" from this "journey." You can now tell everyone what really matters in life. Your suffering must have meaning for others.

The Tragic Victim - Suffer nobly. Accept everyone's pity gracefully. Let people feel good about helping you. Be grateful for their sympathy.

The Comedian - Crack jokes about your diagnosis. Make everyone else comfortable. Laugh about losing your hair. Keep it light. Don't make people face the reality of death.

The Psychiatrist - Listen to everyone else's fears about mortality. Process their anxiety for them. Comfort them about YOUR diagnosis. Manage their emotions.

Die Quietly - Don't make a fuss. Don't burden anyone. Gracefully disappear so they don't have to deal with their own discomfort about death.

"I'm so tired of being The Brave Warrior. I'm not brave. I'm terrified. But if I say that out loud, everyone falls apart."

You perform these roles. All of them. You switch between them depending on who you're talking to.

Your mother needs you to be The Warrior.

Your partner needs you to be The Miracle.

Your friends need you to be The Teacher or The Comedian - whichever makes them less uncomfortable.

Society needs you to be The Victim or to Die Quietly.

And everyone - EVERYONE - turns your cancer into their therapy session.

What's Actually Happening Inside

Meanwhile, while you're performing all these roles for everyone else...

You're up at 3am.

Researching survival statistics for your specific diagnosis.

Reading forums where people with your exact cancer share their stories.

Googling experimental treatments.

Following quacks who promise miracle cures.

Spending money you might not have on protocols that might not work.

Trying everything you can to stay alive while being absolutely terrified of dying.

You're doing "everything you can" - but it's not touching the terror.

Because the terror isn't just about death.

The terror is about running out of time without knowing what actually matters.

Without having the conversations that need to happen.

Without making the decisions that align with your truth.

Without figuring out who YOU are underneath all these archetypes you're performing.

"I have no idea what I actually want. I've been so busy being what everyone else needs me to be that I don't even know what matters to ME anymore."

The Compound Effect

And here's what makes it unbearable:

The external pressure makes the internal terror worse.

Every time you perform The Brave Warrior, the gap between the performance and your actual fear gets wider.

Every time someone tells you to "stay positive," you stuff down the rage and grief a little deeper.

Every time you manage someone else's emotions about YOUR diagnosis, you lose touch with your own truth.

Every time you say yes to something that drains you because you're afraid to disappoint people, you waste time you don't have.

And the clock is ticking.

You're running out of time to figure out what matters.

You're running out of time to have real conversations.

You're running out of time to stop performing and start living.

But nobody - not your therapist, not your support group, not your well-meaning friends - will let you stop performing long enough to figure out what YOU actually want.

That's the real problem.

Not that you're afraid of dying.

But that you're trapped in everyone else's projections about what your diagnosis means...

While the clock is ticking...

And you still don't have clarity about what matters.

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How I Found the Way Out

In August 2021, I had brain surgery to remove a tumor.

I was in my early forties. I had young kids. A wife I loved. A life I desperately wanted to keep living.

It took two months just to recover from the surgery. Learning to walk properly again. Dealing with the cognitive effects. Rebuilding basic functioning.

And during that recovery, my relationship fell apart. The stress of the diagnosis, the surgery, the uncertainty - it was too much.

So by late 2021, I was recovering from brain surgery AND dealing with the end of a relationship.

Everything was falling apart at once.

The Research Phase

I have a background in AI. I was doing a master's degree in clinical psychoneuroimmunology - the study of how the mind, nervous system, and immune system interact.

So I did what any intelligent person would do: I researched.

From late 2021 into 2022, I dove into the psychological mechanisms of being given a cancer diagnosis.

What happens to your mind when you're told you might die?

Why do some people with terminal diagnoses find peace while others stay trapped in terror?

I tried everything that seemed credible:

NLP therapy. Psychotherapy. Alternative treatments. Complementary medicine. Meditation. Breathwork.

I read everything I could find.

I talked to every expert who would talk to me.

And some of it helped. A little.

The breathing techniques calmed me down temporarily.

The therapy gave me language for what I was feeling.

The alternative treatments gave me a sense of agency.

But none of it touched the core terror.

What Kept Happening

Every night, after I'd performed strength all day for my family and friends, the fear would come back.

That primal, animal terror of ceasing to exist.

Of leaving my kids without a father.

Of all the time I'd wasted on things that didn't matter.

And every morning I'd wake up, and the first thought - before I even opened my eyes - was:

"I'm going to die and leave my family."

Months of this.

Months of research, therapy, treatments, performance.

Months of being The Brave Warrior during the day and falling apart at night.

The Night Everything Changed

Then one night - I remember this so clearly - I couldn't take it anymore.

I was alone. The house was quiet.

I'd tried everything "reasonable." Everything evidence-based. Everything recommended by experts.

And I was still terrified.

So I got up and started tearing through my bookcase.

Books on psychology, spirituality, self-help, alternative medicine - I pulled them all off the shelf.

Looking for anything that might help.

And one book stopped me.

An old book I'd had for years called Core Transformation by Connirae Andreas.

It's about a technique called parts therapy - where you speak with different aspects of yourself.

The idea is simple: we all have different "parts." Different voices in our head that believe different things.

The part that wants to be healthy. The part that's terrified. The part that's angry. The part that wants to give up.

And instead of trying to suppress these parts or fight them, you actually have a conversation with them.

You ask them what they're trying to do for you. What they believe. What they need.

And you work with that part - asking deeper and deeper questions - until it transforms into its deepest truth.

I'd used this technique before for smaller things. Habits. Behaviors. Emotions.

But that night, sitting there desperate and alone, I thought:

What if I speak with Death itself?

The Conversation

So I sat down. Closed my eyes. And asked Death to speak.

Death spoke back.

Not in my voice. In a different voice entirely. Calmer. Clearer. More direct.

Death said: "Stop panicking. You're wasting energy. Breathe. Deeply. Feel each breath. Be grateful you can still take it."

So I did. I breathed. And for the first time in months, my body relaxed.

Then Death said: "Look at your life. Really look at it."

And Death started showing me things:

The relationship I was maintaining with my mother because I was afraid of disappointing her - even though every conversation drained me.

The commitments I'd made to prove I was valuable - projects that meant nothing to me.

The possessions I'd hoarded to feel safe - like I was building a fortress that would somehow protect me from mortality.

Old clothes I'd been "meaning to mend" for years. Furniture I kept because it was expensive, not because I liked it. Books I'd never read. Games nobody played.

Obligations. Performances. Safety blankets.

And Death said something I'll never forget:

"You can't take any of this with you. Pack lightly."

That conversation lasted maybe twenty minutes.

And when I opened my eyes, everything had changed.

What I Did Next

Forty-eight hours later, I'd ordered a skip - a big industrial trash bin.

And I started throwing things away.

The old clothes. The old photos that held nothing but obligation. The furniture. The books. The games.

Everything that didn't matter.

People thought I'd lost it.

But I hadn't lost anything. I'd found something.

Death wasn't the enemy.

Death was the only entity willing to tell me the truth about what mattered and what didn't.

Living With Death as Copilot

That was over three years ago now.

I still speak with Death every day.

Every major decision I make, I consult Death first.

Should I take that job? I ask Death.

Should I maintain that relationship? I ask Death.

Should I spend money on this therapy or save it for an experience with my kids? I ask Death.

Should I waste time on this obligation or tell the truth and say no? I ask Death.

And Death always tells me the truth.

Death cuts through all the noise, all the performance, all the bullshit we tell ourselves about what's important.

Because Death knows something nobody else knows: Time is limited. And most of what we spend it on doesn't matter.

What Changed

The terror? Gone.

The performance? Gone.

The 3am panic attacks? Gone.

What's left is clarity. Gratitude. And fierce discernment about what actually matters.

I can have difficult conversations without fear.

I can say no to draining activities without guilt.

I can spend money on what matters instead of hoarding it out of fear.

I can tell people the truth about my feelings instead of performing positivity.

I can disappoint people without collapsing.

Not because I'm brave. Not because I'm healed.

Because I have Death as my advisor.

And Death doesn't care about performance. Death only cares about truth.

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The Framework I Developed

Here's what I realized after that experience:

The transformation from terror to partnership with Death isn't magic.

It's a specific process with specific steps.

And it's built on something that already has decades of research behind it: parts therapy.

Why This Works

Parts therapy has been used successfully for everything from addiction to trauma to chronic pain.

The research is solid. The technique is proven.

What I did was adapt it specifically for the worst diagnosis most people can imagine: cancer.

Or any serious medical diagnosis where mortality becomes real and immediate.

Because here's the insight:

Death isn't separate from you. Death is already a part of you. Death has been with you your entire life, waiting to be spoken with.

And when you finally invite Death into conversation - when you give Death a voice and actually listen - something profound happens.

Death stops being the enemy you're running from.

Death becomes the advisor who tells you what actually matters.

The Framework: 21 Days, Three Weeks

I took what happened to me spontaneously and turned it into a systematic process anyone can follow.

Three weeks. Three phases. Clear exercises at each stage.

Here's exactly what happens.

How It Works

Week 1: Talk With Death (Days 1-7)

Daily 2-hour Zoom sessions with your buddy pod

Week 2: Integration (Days 8-14)

No scheduled Zoom sessions - testing the partnership in real life

Week 3: I'm Not Dead Yet (Days 15-21)

Daily 2-hour Zoom sessions resume

What You Get

The Deathbook (Physical, Shipped to You)

Your complete transformation workbook documenting your entire journey. This isn't a PDF you print yourself. It's a physical book I ship to your door. Inside: your documented personal values (Death-discovered, not generic), your recorded Death dialogues, your rewritten obituary, your anger discharge letters, the "beneath question" process and answers, your personal parts that make up Death for you, your essence cocktail components, and your essential outcomes over all time. This becomes the permanent record of your transformation - something you can return to whenever you need to remember what Death told you matters.

14 Live 2-Hour Zoom Sessions

Week 1 and Week 3, you show up daily at 6pm (optional buddy prep) and 7-9pm (mandatory group session). I teach you the specific processes. We do the exercises together. You rotate buddies during the sessions to connect with everyone in your pod. This isn't watching videos alone - this is live transformation work with real people going through it with you. You need this structure. You need the accountability. You need the witnessing. That's what makes it work.

Your Buddy Pod (Team of 4)

You're assigned to a pod of 4 people. These become your core team. You rotate partners during Zoom sessions so you work with everyone, but this group of 4 is your foundation. Between sessions, you meet with them to do homework - writing letters, sharing your lives, practicing Death dialogue. During Week 2 integration, they're your accountability partners. After the program ends, they're the people who witnessed your transformation. You're not doing this alone.

WhatsApp Support Throughout the Program

Your pod has a WhatsApp group that stays active for all 21 days. Share your breakthroughs. Post your struggles. Ask questions. Support each other. I'm in there too - I respond within 24 hours to anything you post. If you're in genuine crisis (suicidal ideation or medical emergency), I respond immediately. During Week 2 when there are no scheduled calls, this becomes essential. You're never abandoned.

12 Months of Post-Program Support

After the 21 days end, you're not cut loose. You get monthly Q&A calls with me for a full year - bring your questions, your struggles, your wins. You get access to the private Circle community where all alumni gather. You stay in the alumni WhatsApp group. This transformation doesn't end at Day 21. Death is now your lifelong advisor, and I'm here to support that partnership as you deepen it.

Beta Advantages (Because You're First)

You're guinea pigs, which means you get more than future cohorts will get. More direct access to me during the program - I'm watching closely, adjusting in real-time if something isn't working. More flexibility in the structure - if your pod needs something different, we can adapt. More influence over how this evolves - your feedback directly shapes the final version. And most importantly: you get all of this at half price. The full program will be $1,997. You pay $999.

The Five Tuesday Behaviors (Observable Proof of Transformation)

By Day 21, you'll naturally be doing these five things - not because you're trying, but because Death is your advisor and these behaviors emerge from that partnership:

  1. Having difficult conversations fearlessly - You can tell people the truth without performing or protecting them.

  2. Saying no to draining activities - You can disappoint people without collapsing.

  3. Spending money on what matters - Not hoarding it out of fear, not wasting it on obligations.

  4. Telling people the truth about your feelings - Not performing positivity when you're actually scared or angry or sad.

  5. Stopping performance for others - You're done being The Warrior, The Miracle, The Teacher, The Victim, The Comedian, or the one who Dies Quietly.

These aren't goals you work toward. These are the natural result of having Death as your copilot.

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Who This Is For

This program is for you if:

This program is NOT for you if:

Investment & Beta Opportunity

Why Beta?

I need to be completely honest with you.

I've just described a complete 21-day framework. Three weeks. Specific exercises. Clear phases.

It's all mapped out.

But I haven't taught this yet.

I've delivered parts of it to individual clients. I've tested pieces of it in small groups. I've written a book that's in alpha testing right now.

But I've never run the full program with a cohort.

Which means I don't know yet if it works for other people the way it worked for me.

I don't know which exercises will need more time and which will need less.

I don't know where people will get stuck.

I don't know what additional support might be necessary.

That's where you come in.

You'll be the first ones to test this framework in its complete form.

You'll help me refine it. Improve it. Make it as powerful as possible.

You'll be the proof - or the evidence that I need to adjust my approach.

What You Pay

$999

That's 50% off the full program price of $1,997.

Payment plan available: 8 weekly payments of $125

Why Half Price?

Because you're taking a risk on something unproven.

You're committing to giving feedback.

You're willing to possibly share your story if you transform.

You're helping me build something that could change lives.

That's worth a significant discount.

The Numbers

Only 12 spots available.

Three pods of 4 people each.

First cohort launches January or February 2026 (exact dates determined based on who's accepted).

This is a one-time opportunity at this price.

Once I run this beta, gather testimonials, and refine the framework, the next cohort will be full price with a waitlist.

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Common Questions

"What if I'm currently in treatment - can I still join?"

The exclusion isn't about being in treatment - it's about being too physically weak to participate.

If you're in treatment but can still handle 2-hour daily Zoom sessions (Week 1 and Week 3) and intensive emotional work, you can join.

If treatment leaves you too exhausted to show up consistently, wait until you're stronger. The work will be here when you're ready.

"Do I need to believe in this 'talking to Death' thing for it to work?"

No.

You don't need to believe Death is "real" or that this will work.

You just need to be willing to try the technique.

Parts therapy works whether you believe in it or not - it's a process, not a faith system.

You personify Death, give Death a voice, ask questions, and see what happens.

Belief comes AFTER the experience, not before.

"How is this different from therapy or a support group?"

Therapy helps you cope with death. I help you partner with Death.

Support groups offer comfort and community. This offers transformation.

Therapy takes years and keeps you at arm's length from mortality. Death dialogue creates breakthrough in minutes (though integration takes 21 days).

Support groups meet weekly and process feelings. This is daily intensive work that establishes Death as an accessible entity you can speak with anytime.

Therapists have office hours. Death is always available.

Support groups want you comfortable. I want you transformed.

"What happens if I miss a session?"

Week 1 and Week 3 have daily 2-hour Zooms. If you miss one, you fall behind.

The work builds on itself - each session prepares you for the next.

If you have a genuine emergency and miss a session, we'll figure it out. Your buddy pod can catch you up. I can do a quick individual check-in.

But this isn't a "catch the replay when convenient" program. You need to show up live. The transformation happens in the room with your pod.

If you can't commit to being present for 14 sessions over 3 weeks, this isn't your season.

"What if I'm not comfortable sharing in a group?"

Then this program isn't for you.

The buddy pod structure is essential. You'll be reading your anger letters out loud to your buddy. You'll be sharing your Death dialogues. You'll be witnessing each other's transformations.

If you're too private to do that, this won't work.

But here's what makes it different from typical group sharing: everyone in your pod has a serious diagnosis. Everyone is facing mortality. Everyone is sick of performing.

There's no judgment. No toxic positivity. No one trying to fix you.

Just people telling the truth for the first time.

That's what makes it safe enough to be vulnerable.

"Is this religious or spiritual?"

No.

This isn't about God, the afterlife, or any religious framework.

Death in this program isn't a theological concept - it's a personified part of you that holds truth about what matters.

You're not praying to Death. You're not worshipping Death. You're speaking WITH Death as an internal advisor.

Some people experience it as spiritual. Others experience it as purely psychological.

Either way works. The technique is the same.

"What if I don't transform - do I get a refund?"

No refunds.

This is beta. I can't guarantee results I haven't proven yet.

What I can guarantee: the framework that saved my life, delivered systematically, with my full attention in a small group.

If you show up, do the work, and it doesn't land for you - that's valuable feedback I need.

If you don't show up and don't do the work - that's on you.

This isn't a "try it and see" offer. This is a commitment. If you're not ready to commit, don't book the call.

"When exactly does the beta cohort start?"

January or February 2026.

Exact dates will be determined based on who's accepted and what works for the group.

Once you're accepted, we'll coordinate timing together.

It's 21 consecutive days, so you need to be able to commit to 3 full weeks without major interruptions.

"What's the time commitment each week?"

Week 1 (Days 1-7):

Week 2 (Days 8-14):

Week 3 (Days 15-21):

This is intensive.

If you can't carve out this time for 3 weeks, wait for a season when you can.

You Don't Have to Stay Trapped

You didn't ask for this diagnosis.

You didn't ask to become The Brave Warrior or The Miracle or The Teacher.

You didn't ask for everyone to turn your cancer into their therapy session.

You didn't ask to lie awake at 3am, terrified, while performing strength during the day.

But you don't have to stay trapped in that.

Death has something to tell you.

About what matters and what doesn't.

About what you're holding onto that you need to release.

About what you're avoiding that you need to face.

About how to spend the time you have left - whether that's six months or sixty years.

Death knows.

And Death has been waiting your whole life to be spoken with.

You just have to be willing to listen.

Book Your 20-Minute Call

We'll talk about where you are right now.

We'll talk about whether you're emotionally ready for this intensity.

We'll talk about whether you're willing to be a guinea pig and help refine this framework.

We'll talk about whether this is your season.

If it's a fit, I'll send you a payment link and we'll get started.

If it's not a fit - if you're too deep in denial, if you're not ready for the intensity, if this isn't your season - I'll tell you honestly.

There's no hard sell here.

This work is too important to do with people who aren't ready.

I'd rather have 12 people who are ALL IN than 20 people who are half-committed.

So if you're ready...

If you're sick of the performance...

If you're done letting fear run your life...

If you're ready to find out what Death will tell you...

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Let's see if Death has something to tell you.

I'll see you on the other side.

— Benjamin